Tuesday, March 3, 2009

Busy week ahead!!!

It's 3am on Tuesday right now and I just completed my handphone stuff!! Flash in the new firmware for my N73 last saturday and I take few days to reinstall those software, games, themes, bla bla bla... back into my phone... Damn Mah Fan!!! That's the limitation of Symbian OS... But no choice, no budget, have to continue using my phone...

Well, this week is really busy ahead due to test and assignment submission on Thursday, another test on Saturday, but yet I'm still doing nothing which is related with these stuff!! Haha... Gosh, time is getting lesser and lesser, and if I don't have sufficient time to study for my test, I can predict how's the result on my final exam!!! Later class on 9am, gotta suffer till 5pm only manage to finish my class, coz dunno which intelligent person in Utar arranging such a pack time table for my course!!! So, again and again, I didn't do my tutorials for tomorrow's class, and I'm still practicing such an unhealthy behaviour although my experienced before already warned my that this isn't gotta work If I wanna get better results!!! It's week 8 now, and yet I'm still the same, laziness is still the main barrier or distractions.... It's easy to figure out the problems on myself and set up my target, own pormises, or even time-table(although i never implement this!!!), but when the day has arrived and it's time to work on my target, I'm still repeating my ownself history and I really know what's gotta happen next!!! Haiz... Changing ain't easy but I'm trying my best right now to balance back my daily routine by reducing my drama time, gaming time, MSN time..... A compliment for myself is that for this semester I manage to spend more time on my test compared to semester be4.... A good step ahead and I really gotta concentrate on my studies right after this!!!

Although better results couldn't guarantee a bright future ahead, but I'm sure that if I'm still repeating my own history, my future in engineering field is going darker and darker.... Perhaps I'm still use to the "spoon-fed" environment practiced in TARC which causing such condition and situation like this right now... A saying from Mr. Ong which sounded "It's because of your laziness which causing you to suffer in Uni life" is really TRUE!!!

Hmm, seems like tonight I wrote too much on my ownself feelings!!! Haha... What to do, I'm the kinda person who doesn't share my own feelings with others... Even family!!! Unless it's really out of my control.... Almost 3.30 in the moring now, and I'm still writing this useless blog which I should have slept now... Haha...

Sunday, March 1, 2009

1st of March!!!

Hmmmmm, it's 1 in the morning now, the first day in March 09, and I've decided to start blogging again since i stopped it for few month ago... Well, at first I was thinking about to create my own website to post my own blog and share some knowledge with others... But, creating my own website is time consuming and I'm sure that I'll not manage it well in the future since I'm quite laze sincerely... wahahaha... So lastly I choose blogspot as my blogging platform since it's all well prepared!!! Suit my style and I have to say good bye to my yiming88.multiply.com...

Honestly, I do feel that blogging on web is not as nice as to have my own diary coz once I posted my feelings, thinkings, problems, bla bla bla... meaning that I'm telling the whole world bout myself and sometimes some secrets too.... Perhaps!!! This is why I've been stopping from blogging for such a long time... However, I've created this blog and start posting again!!! What the heck am I doing?? Well, coz I'm thinking that sometimes I really need to express my feelings and I figure out Blogging is the only way... Friends? no way, human-being is the most dangerous creatures in the world and I wouldn't tell anyone bout my problems and feelings... HAHA!!! Diary?? no way also coz my writing is really sucks!!! So I'll just post whatever I think it's ok to let the others know and for sure I'll keep my own secrets in the deep of my heart...

Well, when talking bout feelings, recently I think I've found my path back on track again coz before this I really lost in the middle of nowhere... It's understandable coz I had my holidays since Sept 08 till Jan 09 and I spend all my time during holidays for working... Being a software deployment @ CSC for bout 4 months, then suddenly my new semester start again!!! Nvm, when my studies @ Utar started, CNY was jz around the corner!!! What the heck!! How could I settle down myself to concentrate on my studies? Then after CNY, the CNY mood still couldn't switch off, until I finally sick!!! haha... So despite all these distractions, I've finally found back my study mood and this final exam is really important for me.... It's really a Do or Die moment coz last semester my results was the worst ever in my life!!! It's true coz I really never thinking bout having those results in my life... Well, I know what's the reasons causing such a bad results for last semesters and I'm fixing it right now... Hopefully I have sufficient time to do it and to give my best shot in final... Come on, I'm not hoping to stay another year for my study!!!

So, I think it's the end for my first blog, will deco my layout very soon coz it's too late now...